Sweet Summer Time

Summer has been good to us this year, once again way too short but we have been crazy busy so I've completely slacked in the blog life. We've had baseball, Bear Lake, celebrated our first anniversary, softball, my best friends wedding, rodeos, some soccer, and I feel like a million other things because we have been going nonstop. We also have a new little home, super exciting, and have been growing a tiny human, again super exciting!!  Here is just a couple pictures to update everyone on our life. 

Trevor coached Coopers baseball team the beginning of the summer. They both did awesome! 

We braved a bite of our wedding cake after a year in the freezer. The cake part wasn't so bad but the frosting was another story. 

We had a couple sleep overs and play dates with my niece Payzli and nephew Dawson. They all absolutely love when they get to play together! 

My best friend is a Mrs!

Little miss Zoey also joined our family this summer.  

We are pregnant! WHAT!  (I was still shaking so bad none of our pictures turned out haha) 

The boys rode sheep in the Hyrum rodeo and through the tears Kole still pulled the Lane Frost wave out and made the newspaper! 

Coop rode his sheep all the way to the ground in Bear Lake 

We finally closed on our cute house in Wellsville! 

After we told the boys I was having a baby they were bouncing off the walls with excitement! 

Coop wouldn't put down the paper for the longest time he just hugged it and Kole asked if I was having all three babies. Oh I just love them. 

 We find out gender Sept 1! 

XOXO

Emily 

The Bad Days

Some days just aren't happy days.

A couple weeks ago I went in for my usual blood work to check my levels and see if I ovulated. I awaited the phone call knowing it might not be for a couple days. I'm always hopeful but nervous and unsure if I want to hear what they have to tell me. The next day I was at work and had just sent Trevor a text telling him how scared I was to hear back from the doctor. (Might I just say again he is the sweetest and I don't know how I got so lucky to have him by my side.) I really was hopefully that this time I would actually ovulate, I had a good feeling. Right then my phone rang and I was told this round of medicine was unsuccessful as well. I was immediately upset and in tears but knew I had to pull myself together since I still had a full work day ahead of me. I was mad and disappointed with my body. My eyes watered all day. It's these days I just have to tell myself it's okay to be sad it's okay to cry and be upset but tomorrow will be a new day and I will be okay. 

The past couple weeks have been some of those bad days and very discouraging.  It's frustrating because I'm over feeling like complete crap all the time. I'm tired of being nauseous all the time or not having an appetite.  I'm tired of taking pills everyday twice a day. I'm exhausted from planning and timing everything.  Sounds dramatic and I know I am being just that but I am allowed to have bad days and be over whelmed right? But I know every bad day leads me one day closer to the day I wait for.  Our day will come and we will get to add one more little one to our crazy bunch. As of now I have three wonderful men in my life that keep me smiling and on my toes and I am blessed.

Wish us luck and send positive vibes as we get closer to starting the next round of clomid. 

Thank you everyone for the love and support thus far! 

XOXO

Emily

Babies...The Question of the Day

I have typed this post a hundred times just to delete it. I still feel unsure about blogging about it since I have been so reluctant and haven't been ready to share with everyone before but now I think it is something I need for me to help me deal with it in my own way. Talking and venting my thoughts. 

Many women grow up dreaming of becoming a mother and feeling her baby inside her tummy, I mean it is the one thing a women was blessed with the ability to do. No one tells you how difficult it is to make a baby though.  This isn't something I have shared with a lot of people because it's not really something you want broadcasted or talked about but it is becoming something that is more and more frequent in women around us and it is truly heart breaking to me.

Trevor and I had talked about kids before we got married and we knew we wanted the boys to have more brothers/sisters and we wanted them to be close in age with the boys. It has always been in the back of my mind because of genetics but I tried to always have hope. We decided to start trying early on & I talked to my doctor about possibilities, ran some tests and ultrasounds, because of a history with cysts. I lost hope pretty fast and became devastated when the doctor confirmed that I had PCOS. Basically that means I don't ovulate or have regular periods, have ovarian cysts and your body does not process carbohydrates properly and you are over sensitive to insulin. 

We have done three rounds of Clomid so far with no luck so we will be starting the fourth round soon. I know a little bit about infertility and asked my doctor about another medication that helps some women so this time my doctor wants me to add another medicine called Metformin. Fingers crossed. By the way, I have the best doctor, anyone that is in the Logan area I highly recommend Dr. Erica Smith. She is awesome. 

The process is physically demanding, emotionally draining and a roller coaster. Poor Trevor and anyone that has to be around me, I am one mean and grumpy girl. You get excited thinking maybe this time then get crushed with negative ovulation tests which obviously leads to negative pregnancy tests. The thing I find most frustrating is that we don't know if it will even happen this month or if it's just a trial run to see if the dose or medicine is strong enough.

Again, I'm not trying for sympathy or pity that is the exact opposite of what I want, just want to journal and vent my emotions. Many people have tried for much longer than we have and I truly look up to those couples because they are so much stronger than I am. Simply amazing people. It's not a lie when they say it is rough on the couple, it has been a rough trial for this newly wed couple but I was blessed with the most amazing guy to go through it with. He is seriously the sweetest and always keeps hope and stays positive when I'm feeling down and encourages me that things will work out when and how they are suppose to. Love you babe! 

When the times are right I will share more and update as we go through this journey. Thank you everyone for the love and support so far! 

This picture is perfect, me wondering how I got so dang lucky to have him by my side forever and always. 

XOXO 

Emily

Short and Sweet

I know I know I've been slacking lately with writing so we will play a little catch up. Kole's 4th birthday was March 1, by the way I can't believe he was only 2 when he came into my life man how time flies!! We did his birthday party the weekend after his birthday and I think it's safe to say everyone had a blast. Thanks again to all our family that came to celebrate with us! Huge thanks to my mom who made the most adorable cake ever for Kole which was exactly what he had been asking for! We ended the day by taking the boys to the last Aggie basketball home game. Coop was beyond thrilled since he is quite the baller ya know. Koley, well was exhausted from the big day so I got some good snuggles in that night with him. 

Trevor and I have also had a little fun lately. We went to a Jazz game a last Tuesday and then heading off on a mini vacation to West Yellowstone, Montana on Thursday for the weekend. I don't know what it is but every time I've been to Montana I fall in love with it! If it weren't for the winters being like Wyomings I would consider moving there. 

That's about all the excitement happening in our life the past month. Here are a couple pictures for everyone to enjoy! 

XOXO

Emily 

 

Together we make a family.

Life as a step parent is not easy. Plain and simple it is the hardest thing I have done in my life. You will get treated unfairly and be talked badly about because of the stereotypical stepmom role. Time, it all takes time. Sometimes it is hard to remember that you won't become an instant happily ever after family. Some days feel like a complete fail and makes you question everything you do but you get through them because of the "I can do this" days. I found a blog and part of what she said has really stuck with me. I also thought I would share one of my favorite quotes I have looked back on from day one. 

I am a proud stepmom and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have been incredibly blessed to have two little boys brought into my life, these little ones are worth every tear and smile this road may bring. No child can ever have too many people who stand behind them supporting them.  

Tonight was "Western Night" at Coopers school. Every year they rotate between father/son and mother/son. This year it was mothers and sons so Coop is a pretty lucky boy and brought both of his moms so we went and had a great time square dancing and dressing up. You would think I would have some cowboy boots at least, ya know since I did grow up in Wyoming for 18 years, turns out I'm a little out of touch with my roots.  Here are a couple pictures from our night. 

XOXO

     Emily

Life As We Know It

Hello family and friends! I have decided to start a blog to keep everyone updated on our life and what we have been up to. I'm no writer and I'm no English professor so bear with me and we will see how this goes!

2014 was a big year for Trevor and I. We had tons of big changes in our life and I can't wait to share our life and story with everyone we love.

March 30th- We got engaged... officially 

June 6th- By far the best day of my life so far was marrying my best friend and his two sweet boys. Yes I would say I married them too and I wouldn't have it any other way. I get three guys to look after me now, I think I’m a pretty dang lucky gal.

August- We moved into our first apartment/townhouse. A place to call our own and a fresh start together. It isn't where we want to be long term just a good place to start out our crazy adventure. When we moved we had to get rid of my precious puppy Rutley that Trevor had got for me when we first started dating. Well I get way too attached to my dogs so this was a huge stressful thing for me because I wanted to make sure he went to a good family. Luckily my cousin Hudson and his wife Vanessa took him so that was awesome!  

December- It was our first Christmas being married and being a family. We had the boys Christmas Eve and Christmas morning and it was the defiantly the best Christmas I have probably had. Seeing the magic in their little eyes and happiness on their face was more than I could have asked for, for Christmas this year.

I know we had countless other things happen over the year those are just a few highlights. Personally I think photos speak louder than words so here is picture overload from 2014!

Kole's 3rd Birthday!

The night before our big day! 

Vegas Baby

Coopers 6th Birthday! 

Had to throw these in there because I miss my spoiled four legged child! 

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Santa was sure good to us this year

 XOXO

    Emily